Lot's to share...later...some now...some later

I'm happy to announce the birth of my "niece." I've been away supporting D, dad and baby's first few days back from the hospital. In that time I still did a bit of energy work and have been enjoying an awesome book exploring the connections across the ages and cultures of energy healing. From the Hawaiian Kahuna concept of "mana" to Native American "orenda", Hebrew "ruach" and homeopathy's "vital force" working with the healing energy extends beyond China's chi, Japan's ki and India's prana. I have a deep desire to understand fully this energy across time and space.

It is an absolute joy, an adventure to delve intellectually into the abundance of information on this intuitive, and yet pragmatic approach to healing body, mind, soul and spirit.

And results???

Yes. On myself, with family and with students. I've got a case I'm working with right now and I will share more about after it concludes next week.

What I can share tonight is that I am growing in respect for this work. I totally understand the fees. I've been doing work on three or four people, including myself, on any given night. It does take time, energy and a fairly substantial amount of commitment and focus...and study...and practice.

In other words, as they in the South, it's more than a notion. I have always been quick to want to offer to help (or some might call it butt in). Their's a guilt complex involved for sure--real guilt or imagined conventional nonsense.

Working with energy healing is truly helping me separate out my motivations. It just isn't possible to help everyone whom I recognize could benefit.

With wanting to maintain my lifestyle with my current employment and desiring to maintain a peaceful equilibrium, I can only comfortably fit in somewhere between 5 and 10 sessions a week, depending on my schedule.

And that limitation is truly a blessing. I can't "waste" my time sending healings at every whim, where I'm not invited, or where it isn't my business. I'm learning to discern the differences and to spend my time wisely.

In addition to learning to respect my time and energy, I'm also learning to respect my desires, my loves...my self, in ways I hadn't realized I was lacking.

How? Why?
I find the time working with energy to be an amazing experience. It opens my mind, my heart, my soul. I find it intellectually stimulating and spiritually enlivening. My interest is passionate. I have found my home.

Now that I have, I don't want anything to take me from it. I don't have time for drama, games, complexes, neurosis...and not those of other people, either. Well, actually, that too has been a boon of this work. I no longer need to concern myself with the drama, games, complexes and neurosis of other people. I know more cetainly than ever in any lifetime, that if it's in my life, I only need to look into the mirror to discover why it's there. Is the result of a guilt complex? Am I feeling undeserving? Am I projecting? Am I hiding from some truth?

Now I have the tools to comfortably and carefully look to myself for both the source of the problem and the solution.

The love I want versus the love I need, for example. First time in my life I am considering the love I need. Now that I have located a passion that moves me in a way I have never before known, I can finally recognize that the idea of love I've looked for has little to do with supporting me in my spiritual growth.

Most important, in terms of gaining respect, is learning to accept from a real and a clear place, that my spiritual life is as integral as all other aspects of my life. Spirituality has finally eclipsed sexuality as a focal point for my relationships. I've been waiting a really long time for that one.

I believe the Pranic Healing technique I use is the one most responsible for releasing my energy from my base and sex chakra up to my crown chakra. The Reiki has been instrumental as the technique to free my body and mind so that I would not fight the spiritual cleansing required to reach this new level of awareness, interest, commitment, love and general respect.

As I've mentioned in past posts, I become a Reiki Master late next month. The significance of that is that it opens me to deeper spiritual cleansing and growth.

I have found a great marriage within myself--my higher and lower self are speaking to each other and loving each other. In me, my Father's will has married my Mother's love. My inner god and my inner goddess are creating Heaven on Earth for my soul...right here, right now.