Saturday, May 31, 2008

Crystal Companions

A few weeks back, I purchased a large Herkimer piece. The large central piece is nearly four inches long with smaller herkimers partially included. I hadn't visited the farmer's market crystal stand in a long while.

While at The Om my eye settled on a large piece. I can't recall exactly what it was, but it was something new. And it was expensive. Over $100. I didn't get the sense that it was unequivocally mine and that I needed to buy it. It's energy was commanding and I needed to hold it a while, but that was it. After several minutes I sat it down. As I've noted in an earlier post, I can generally tell by energetic scan which pieces are new. My physical eye is drawn to them by the impression they make on my third eye.

After scanning the whole of the farmer's market booth, my eye settled on a very large herkimer. It was one of two they had displayed. As soon as I saw it I knew it was going home with me. It is an amazing feeling that I've described on several occasions. The certainty and clarity of what belongs to us. There are certain stones that as soon as I see them, I know they are meant to go home with me. A favorite story of a friend that helps me act on these moments deals with an item that he saw in a market on a trip to Spain. He loved it at first sight, but hesitated to make such an expensive decision hastily. By the next day, he knew with all his being that it was exquisitely perfect for him, meant for him. Unfortunately some other soul concluded the same and made the decision without hesitation.

The failure to act haunts him to this day. It isn't that his life has suffered because the item didn't make it into his hands. It's the regret of having doubted what belonged to him. A version of the girl that gets away.

Not that the point isn't made, but it also reminds me of a jacket that a motorcycle-riding buddy of mine saw at a huge convention center expo years ago. He'd tried on dozens of jackets at several different booths. Finally, there was one that was gorgeous on him. He didn't seize the moment. The next day when he went back, it was gone. Five years later, he's still in search of the perfect jacket.

Perhaps its these stories of others that enable me to take seriously those moments of certainty and act on them.

This herkimer was what I'd come to the booth to buy. I was delighted that this was the stone. Part of the delight was that it was a herkimer and everyone knows these are pretty cheap. I thought, "yeah, I dodged the $100-plus item". And then I turned over the Herkimer to reveal the price underneath. We know what I found.

No time to be cheap. I'd already committed to it, already acknowledged we belonged together. It has proven to be priceless.

Among the many smaller pieces attached about the larger herkimer was an inch-long and 1/2-inch thick herkimer which sat atop it like a child resting on it's mother's belly. It was certainly my favorite part of the whole to gaze upon and finger. It's citrine-smokey flavor gave a distinct character from its mostly clear and white host.

I bought it a few days before my trip to Turks and Caicos (TCI) and knew I was meant to take it with me. I took it and five others to be cleansed in the Caribbean Sea.

Since purchasing it, I sleep with it every night. Just over a week ago, it managed to fall to the ground. I don't know if it hit the metal of my bed frame or the lamp post, but I know the impact was enough to break it apart. Three pieces came off. The first was this very lovely smokey-citriny flavored piece perfect for the pocket each day. My days have been much more peaceful and protected since I began carrying it around.

The other is a smaller herkimer, the more typical 1/4 - 1/2 inch variety. I'm planning to have it placed in a ring setting so that I can carry this energy with me all the time--either the pocket piece or the ring. The third piece that fell off was a small slab. As for the larger piece, it is with me as I sleep every night and has been since TCI.

Why tell the tale of the breaking herkimer? It feels like a writing companion. Since purchasing the Herkimer, my ability to communicate with the muses collaborating with me on Luzca's story has increased. I had it with me on TCI when the breadth of the story typed its way onto the page while I watched.

I've been writing regularly and have seen an increase in the integrity of my personal boundaries. Beautiful stuff.

Fate went to a lot of trouble to bring that special herkimer from a mine in New York to a farmer's market on the other side of the continent. It arranged an unexpected pocket of time for me to spend ten minutes at the same market the day after I'd booked my trip when I had a ton of errands to run.

It's not always easy to say yes to fate, yes to the universe when it gives us what we want and need. At some point we learn it is even harder on us if we say no.

7 comments:

  1. REALLY weird that u should talk of broken crystals all of a sudden! I have been thinking of writing u a mail regarding it since the day before, but couldn't do it till now 'coz my internet connection was down and just started working again!

    Actually, I have this hexagonal clear quartz points for my crystal grid. They are like kind of polished (for lack of any better word to describe them!) with the base flat, the shaft hexagonal, tapering into a point at the other end.

    Had 6 of them but dropped one as I was cleaning them day before yesterday. Now the base is chipped off to give an irregular slant instead of a flat surface, and the point has also chipped off to give a slightly more crooked point (as against the perfectly smooth taper it was earlier)!

    I was wondering what to do about it. Can I still use it in my grid?

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  2. Good question. Everything is very intuitive with me in terms of what I know or don't know. When I dropped the herkimer, as soon as I picked up the pieces and saw that the piece I had most admired had fallen off, I knew it was a blessing. I left out in the initial version that it fell right after a rather significant moment of realization, so I took the breakage to symbolize a type of graduation.

    That said, rather than a comment I'd first ask a question. Can you recall your initial reaction when it fell, your immediate understanding no matter how brief and fleeting.

    I'm guessing that you may have sensed one of the following within a second or two of it falling:
    1. that it took on a very intense healing, almost like self-sacrifice to facilitate a result or
    2. that it wishes to be retired to a different service for the time being or

    Those are my intuitive guesses.

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  3. Taking a moment, I actually suspect it is both 1 and 2. I remember learning in a pranic healing course that the energy available through our crystals can be limited if they are not properly re-energized with placement in the sun or other source after particularly intense or draining sessions.

    The course taught a system for programming the crystals to automatically re-energize by pulling prana into itself periodically.

    This is taken directly from Pranic Crystal Healing by Master Choa Kok Sui (he has passed on).
    "Automatic Recharging:
    To recharge the crystals automatically, instruct them to draw in pranic energy from the healing angels, healing ministers, beings of light, and the great ones when they are being used for healing. With a laser crystal, instruct it to recharge automatically when it is projecting energy.

    "Giving the crystals the proper instructions is very important. Do not tell the crystals to absorb pranic energy from the surroundings only. If you give such an instruction, they may absorb or draw out pranic energy even from people within the surroundings. This may cause serious health problems to those living within the area, including petts and plants. When instructing the crystals, do not also specify the name of any guru. Unless the guru grants permission, using the Guru's name is unethical."

    I'm guessing he threw in that last line because too many of his students were charging them in his name while he was still living and constantly drawing energy from his own aura. Just my guess.

    Hope that adds to your work with crystals.

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  4. "Can you recall your initial reaction when it fell, your immediate understanding no matter how brief and fleeting."

    Hmmm! Now that u mention it, the moment it slipped from my fingers (I was dismantling the grid on my kitchen slab)... the first thot that entered my mind was "There, that one's gone now!"... and this was even before the crystal actually hit the floor and broke!

    So maybe it's work in the grid is finished I suppose!

    But how wud I know if it sacrificed itself to manifest any of the intents in the grid?

    So now... what should I do about it? If it sacrificed itself, does it mean that it cannot be used for anything now? In that case, how should I dispose off it?

    Can I bury it in one of my plant pots?

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  5. "There, that one's gone now!"...

    I'd say trust that first impression. I sense it more as the crystal just got overloaded and used it's last bit of reserves to the service of the grid. In time it can be recharged and used for some other purpose. It needs a thorough cleaning and either time buried in the earth or an extended period outdoors in the sun. It will always remain a usable quartz, but the changes in its structure will change how you use it. The best bet is to ask it what it wants to do.

    It through itself on the floor to say "enough" with the grid for a while. Crystals have will. Ask it what it wants to do next. I'd love to hear what it says.

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  6. I hv a feeling u r right... it doesn't want to remain in the grid anymore. Well, to be very honest, I hadn't really felt like charging tht grid for quite a few days now, and I usually "Reiki" it at least 4 days a week! That's the reason I decided to dismantle it that day finally.

    The smaller chip that fell off the base - I really feel like using it with my plants somehow - only I can't figure out how... should I place it in my balcony near the pots? should I bury it one of those pots? should I use it for chrging the water for my plants instead? I guess I'll just give it sum time n the answer shud come to me. :)

    As for the bigger piece.. well, I'm glad I don't hv to get rid of it... 'coz it's really looking so much prettier now, I wud hv hated to part with it! I don't know what I'm supposed to do with it though, so I've just left it out to soak up the sun as u suggested... n then after a few days I guess I'll just ask it like u said! :D

    Thanks for replying so promptly pal... n also for sharing that info from pranic healing... I don't really know all tht stuff... THANKS! :)

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  7. Hey u might wanna read this...

    http://mysterious-kaddu.blogspot.com/2008/06/odd-one-out.html

    Thanks once again!

    [Hugs & Smiles]

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