2010

It's not even Thanksgiving yet, but why not start looking at what fabulous plans can be made for 2010. I went online to register for a creative writing course at the local college.

How crazily busy I've been this fall. Such a far cry from who I used to be, the little I used to get done. If you don't know, I really lived like the quintessential loner. A few close friends. Not too many engagements. Lots of time reading, contemplating, and, of course, a few favorite television shows.

Just recently, I began to accept that my life isn't changing back to the slower pace I used to embrace, revel in and hold sacred. My time was so precious to me. Not the kind of precious that leads to active living and loving. More like the kind of precious that has you guard, protect and enjoy as observer rather than participant.

Over the past year I've been busier and busier. Sometimes I'll tell myself, "I'm just going to continue this pace until..." and then, presumably, go back to that more restful state where I value time alone above all else.

I still love time to think and contemplate. I just don't love it more than time doing and being in action around what matters to me. How I loathed anything that interfered too consistently with my long evening walks. Now, I take them each day with Chocolate. More times than not I'm talking as well. So different. So lived. So wonderful.

This afternoon I was in between calls and a cousin from Texas rang. He wanted help with an algebra problem that he was helping his girlfriend solve. That was fun.

There's so much living to do. I still love time alone, time to contemplate and time to allow my body to regenerate itself. I just no longer love it MORE THAN all there is to do in life.

Writing classes.
Writing.
More healing classes.
Healing and sharing healing in classes I teach.
Loving my lover.
Cooking. Experimenting with cooking.
Drinking wine and enjoying it leisurely.
Time in my infrared sauna. Oooh-la-la, sweet healing heat.
Playing with my dog, Chocolate. Walking chocolate and enjoying the scenes.
Talking to my family, talking to friends.
Talking.
Listening.
Hearing the world. Hearing others.

Hearing, Healing
Talking, Listing

Writing.

Winter Wind's Kiss

A cloudy evening walk with Chocolate through the neighborhood. As usual, I was also on the phone. As usual, talking with my buddy Gilbert.

"I have to stop. I can't move. I have to just be with something right now. Something's calling me."

I stood at the corner of a nearby street transfixed by the path. I stared down the sidewalk. There was no one walking, no cars driving. The only movement were leaves. The wind gently but with great intention, blew through them. It reminded me of scenes shown over and over and over during a particularly bad hurricane. e

The trees weren't bent over and the sound of rustling more melodic than foreboding. It only seemed alarming because of the contrast to five months of stillness.

It was winter wind's first hello. I had to stop and experience it, enjoy it. The light gray sky was a perfect nondescript background to winter whispering its coming.

Flashes of cold walks, falling rain and long, cozy evenings came over me.

All lovers should greet with such a captivating kiss.

Roots: ling qi, reiki

I love research. I like discovering what others take for granted. More so, I enjoy finding the overlooked connections that explain what others have glossed over in an attempt to avoid uncomfortable uncertainty.

Ready to take on Reiki as an enterprise, I've been diving into it for a thorough understanding. There's a spiritual element to it. What's that about? When I tell a Christian that Reiki is a complement to any faith or no faith, I need to know what allows me to say so.

Without too much effort, I've learned that Reiki came to Japan via China and that it is most likely related to ling qi. In fact, I'm very comfortable asserting that this is highly probable.

So then, how did the Chinese get it? I love Ecclesiastes' refrain that there is "nothing new under the sun". So then, what was reiki before it was ling qi? Of course, there are many who point to the Egyptians. Yummy. More research.

photo shot

The last classroom for my photography class was last night. In a little over a week, we'll have a show night. A collection of 35 to 45 of each students top shots will be organized and set to music. We can invite friends and family and it turns into a party at the studio.

I'm not so excited about my shots. I know what I could shoot. And I see what I have shot. There's nothing wrong with my photos. They just aren't spectacular.

Tonight, I went out with camera, determined to capture some amazing stuff before the final deadline of Friday. Determination wasn't enough. I got a few lovely shots.

Tomorrow, at it again.

The universe at work

Today ends 30 days of daily blogging. How delicious it has been.

I've learned that I really can make time to write each day and that my writing doesn't have to be great to be worth doing.

As the universe would have it, a confluence of circumdtances has me ready to take on writing my novel again. To just do it.

Yesterday's post, the write-up on why I took the The Landmark Forum--wanting to write my novel.

Lat night, I was reading more of The Shack and came upon the lines where God emphasizes that we can do anything standing inside our being part of Him, as co-creators.

Then tonight, listening to the same person who lead my Advanced Course in January. It was there that I created the possibility of being Creativity Powerfully Expressed.

It's time to be that.

My Results

No, not from any medical tests. And not from any kind of entrance exam for yet another degree.

Tonight, I completed a write-up on what I got from my participation in The Introduction Leaders Program. It'll be posted, along with a photo, in the Landmark Education's Newport Beach Center where I've taken a bunch of classes.

I've decided to share it here. Much of it is a re-working of things shared on this blog previously, but it pulls it all together.

Here it is:

A little about me
I teach law, government and economics to high school seniors. I love learning and love being an educator. I adore my Chihuahua, Chocolate, and can’t imagine life without international travel. I’m a Reiki Master/Teacher and an author.

Why I signed up for the Introduction Leaders Program
When I signed up for The Landmark Forum in August 2008, I was looking for a breakthrough in writing a novel and in creating a relationship. What I got was a breakthrough in creating ease and fun in my work as an educator and immense peace of mind. The benefits of The Landmark Forum were great, but I still wanted more. After my Advanced Course, my identity as a loner was falling away, but I still wanted more. The Introduction Leader Program’s promises of Full-Blown Self Expression and Remarkable Contribution appealed to me.

What I got
Between the distinctions covered in the classroom and my experiences assisting at Introductions to The Landmark Forum, I got the promise of Remarkable Contribution. Through assisting friends, family and strangers in registering themselves into The Landmark Forum, I discovered that I stand for love, joy and balance being present in the lives of everyone I know and meet. I began to experience instant relatedness with anyone and everyone. My teaching transformed. I became more related to my students and took on leaving them empowered and present to their own greatness. The quality and initiative in the projects they produced took off.

As a stand for the experience of love and joy, I also got Full-Blown Self Expression. Before the Introduction Leaders Program, I kept the benefits of reiki and energy healing to myself. I didn’t want anyone to think I was weird or silly for promoting energetic balance as a tool for health maintenance. Never mind my own results or what I knew to be possible, before the Introduction Leaders Program I’d only taught reiki to my mom and one friend. Now that I’m unconstrained in sharing myself and what matters to me, I’ve taught it to half my family and nearly all my friends. During the program I declared my commitment to empowering 100 people to take charge of their health through energetic balance before 2009 ends. It is now my business.

As for the results I was looking for in The Landmark Forum…I created the outline to that novel during the program’s first weekend. Come to think of it, that was the same weekend I began the relationship I was looking for when I registered into The Landmark Forum!

Personal transformation manifested for me in every area The Introduction Leaders Program promised. What I got is exactly what I was looking for…and more.


Robin Davis Fesseha

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