Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Next Steps

At a seminar I attended last night, the leader says, "...and now you're bored. You've created for yourself the life you wanted, you have it. It's perfect. And you're bored with your perfect life."

My life isn't everything I always ever wanted. It may not be the life any always ever wanted me to have. It is, however, exactly the life I created for myself. Plenty of free time to do with as I please. Close friends, but not an abundance of social events or an excess of active acquaintances. Not the beachfront home I wanted, but surely a roomy, quiet condominium with expansive enough decks and the perfect dog to join me when I soak up the sun on them. I even created for myself the exact lover I wanted. Not bad.

Bored.

I created the pay I wanted for a job that is essentially part-time and part-year. As a teacher my day ends at 1:37pm and, let's be honest, I work about eight months a year after summer, winter and spring breaks and holidays.

Bored.

Yes, I get to impact lives.

Bored.

Sure, there are those really cool Landmark classes I take. Sometimes I take them alone, some I take with my sweetheart. In fact we just started a new one.

This one is called "Creativity: Life By Design". That's the course where the speaker asserted some of us were there because we're bored with what we created and ready for "what's next".

I am. That's me.


I've been thinking about becoming a financial planner, a real estate agent or maybe just finally get off it and teach reiki classes for real and get the website up. A couple books when through my mind as usual. So many options.

Running from my boredom. Running to a fulfilling future. Running to the dreams I left behind when I began to believe that what I have is all I ever wanted.

And a wonderful notion entered my head when I did the homework. I'm unsure about what's next, what career, what business because I have no cause, no purpose, no inspiration greater than myself just yet.

Inspired by the homework, I begin to see that while I give lip service to wanting to help women gain their financial footing, I am not truly about the larger cause of empowering women.

I am embarking on figuring out what I stand for, what I care about.

A passion.

Boredome's antidote.

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