NaNoWriMo 2nd Time

I just want to express within the hallowed space of a public blog that I CAN NOT START WRITING!!!!!

Exhale. Deep breath. Longer exhale. I'm in my second NaNoWriMo. This time tackling, from scratch, the novel I've been talking about since 2007. Out wit the old chapters, in with the new inspiration. By November 30th, it'll be done. Just one thing...I haven't started.

I'm sitting at the computer. I'm stuck. This is why I did the Landmark Forum in 2008. I make this doggone thing so doggone significant. My Evil Ego Twin, she's a real you-know-what. She's on my shoulder insisting I am simply not big enough, not good enough and definitely not ready to take on THIS novel. It's too big and I am too small. Who do I think I am? A writer? "Hah!!" She laughs.

That's my Evil Ego Twin. I just needed to share her with you. We're wrestling over my integrity, my life.

My promise is to write 2000 words tonight. Her promise is that I'll be stopped by insecurity.

Thank God I know who wins.


It's great to allow my Evil Ego Twin to be heard outside my head. She seems small when I type her out and share. When I let her run free in the darkness of my fears and doubts she's large enough to disable.

Check out my page and progress throughout the month of November. I'll begin updating my word count after November 10th.