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I’ve begun a fantastic project. Through the current Landmark course I’m taking, the Self Expression and Leadership Program, I am endeavoring to create a community blog for healers. energyexpressed.blogspot.com
As I finished one of the first entries, I was moved to offer a closing and sign my name.
Blessings,
Rahbin
My legal first name has been the initial R for years now, maybe a decade, maybe longer. The “Robin” just hasn’t felt right. Rabin hasn’t felt right, either. Tonight it felt so natural to sign my name in that spelling. I only noticed it after I’d typed it. So there it is.
My name’s birthday, January 13, 2009 @ 10:23pm. Rahbin.
I didn’t see any angels or other signs, but that’s my new name. 2009 is going to be amazing!
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Who I Am
Who I am is the possibility of Creativity Expressed!
In one of the Landmark courses, the Advanced Course, participants have an opportunity to decide what they'd like to bring into their lives, into existence. Examples include the possibilities of being love, fun, leadership, joy, inspiration and so on.
I chose creativity expressed. Originally, I thought that choice was specifically about my trying to get MY creativity expressed. Books would finally get written, I'd blog more, I'd finally paint something and hang it on my wall. MY creativity expressed.
Over the course of the last week, I've gotten to know this possibility a little better. We snuggle up together and it whispers it's deepest hopes and dreams to me. Who I am is the Possibility of Creativity Expressed.
That's Creativity with a capital "C". And God said, "Let there be..." God created. Just go there with me for a minute: "So God created man in His own image, in the image of God he created him, male and female He created them." Genesis 1:27.
As humans we have this incredible capacity to create. The obvious stuff are the artistic expressions--poetry, paintings, sculpture. But every conversation, every moment, every version of reality to which we subscribe is likewise our creation. Too bad, that it's usually done on autopilot.
Imagine creating our lives, our experiences, our world deliberately and purposefully. Creativity Expressed.
Who I am is the Possibility of Creativity Expressed.
In one of the Landmark courses, the Advanced Course, participants have an opportunity to decide what they'd like to bring into their lives, into existence. Examples include the possibilities of being love, fun, leadership, joy, inspiration and so on.
I chose creativity expressed. Originally, I thought that choice was specifically about my trying to get MY creativity expressed. Books would finally get written, I'd blog more, I'd finally paint something and hang it on my wall. MY creativity expressed.
Over the course of the last week, I've gotten to know this possibility a little better. We snuggle up together and it whispers it's deepest hopes and dreams to me. Who I am is the Possibility of Creativity Expressed.
That's Creativity with a capital "C". And God said, "Let there be..." God created. Just go there with me for a minute: "So God created man in His own image, in the image of God he created him, male and female He created them." Genesis 1:27.
As humans we have this incredible capacity to create. The obvious stuff are the artistic expressions--poetry, paintings, sculpture. But every conversation, every moment, every version of reality to which we subscribe is likewise our creation. Too bad, that it's usually done on autopilot.
Imagine creating our lives, our experiences, our world deliberately and purposefully. Creativity Expressed.
Who I am is the Possibility of Creativity Expressed.
Transformation...ongoing
Finally, I am starting to get it. Between my Landmark courses, conversations with old friends and the daily process of processing living with an attitude of marvel and wonder, I am starting to be ok with me. The real me that I've hidden under all those warm, friendly behaviors that were designed to make sure I was tolerated with the least amount of interference or undesirable attention.
I post so little because I fear so much. Sure, I'm busy, too. But mostly the reason it takes so long to add entries here is because I am always wanting to edit and sanitize to assure I've controlled the impression left. So I think, anyway. I fear being judged inadequate, flaky, weird, unacceptable, daft. And yet, people who are tempted to judge me that way will do so no matter how well I edit. I wrap my ideas in cellophane and think I'm keeping secrets.
And as much as I all those things, I am also each of their opposites. And, on top of that, a whole host of other things and their opposites. Complicated, complex being.
Time to move on from fear. In the past I've tried to come up with some central theme around which my handful of readers--friends, family and fellow healers--might find acceptable and predictable and thereby be enticed to revisit. Yep, I spent a lot of useless time trying to figure out what kinds of posts should be placed here.
Transformation. That's really the theme that has always been true. The only impediment to claiming it has been my need to share only the things that let me look good as I saw it. Challenges resolved instead of challenges ongoing.
Flaky!!! I started this blog writing about my experiences with Reiki and Crystals and the fantastic ways my life changed for the better. And then, blogs about my passion for writing. And so on and so on. It felt so inconsistent. And yet, the consistency was present and obvious to everyone but me. Transformation.
This is notice that my blogs will be transforming. I won't even predict into what. Let's see what happens.
I post so little because I fear so much. Sure, I'm busy, too. But mostly the reason it takes so long to add entries here is because I am always wanting to edit and sanitize to assure I've controlled the impression left. So I think, anyway. I fear being judged inadequate, flaky, weird, unacceptable, daft. And yet, people who are tempted to judge me that way will do so no matter how well I edit. I wrap my ideas in cellophane and think I'm keeping secrets.
And as much as I all those things, I am also each of their opposites. And, on top of that, a whole host of other things and their opposites. Complicated, complex being.
Time to move on from fear. In the past I've tried to come up with some central theme around which my handful of readers--friends, family and fellow healers--might find acceptable and predictable and thereby be enticed to revisit. Yep, I spent a lot of useless time trying to figure out what kinds of posts should be placed here.
Transformation. That's really the theme that has always been true. The only impediment to claiming it has been my need to share only the things that let me look good as I saw it. Challenges resolved instead of challenges ongoing.
Flaky!!! I started this blog writing about my experiences with Reiki and Crystals and the fantastic ways my life changed for the better. And then, blogs about my passion for writing. And so on and so on. It felt so inconsistent. And yet, the consistency was present and obvious to everyone but me. Transformation.
This is notice that my blogs will be transforming. I won't even predict into what. Let's see what happens.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Financial Opportunities
From today's LA Times:
"With the S&P 500 index down 52% from its peak, it would have to rise 108% just to recoup its losses."
Time is on our side. After the Great Depression, stock values eventually multiplied by the tens. I'm not taking anything out of the stock market. Nope. Leave it all there. By the time I'm seventy or eighty, I'll be super-wealthy!
The article ended:
"The mood is that 'the stock market only has one direction now, and that's lower...Why buy today if you can buy it cheaper tomorrow."
Sounds like a plan. When do the tomorrow's end and that other, always better, future begin?
"With the S&P 500 index down 52% from its peak, it would have to rise 108% just to recoup its losses."
Time is on our side. After the Great Depression, stock values eventually multiplied by the tens. I'm not taking anything out of the stock market. Nope. Leave it all there. By the time I'm seventy or eighty, I'll be super-wealthy!
The article ended:
"The mood is that 'the stock market only has one direction now, and that's lower...Why buy today if you can buy it cheaper tomorrow."
Sounds like a plan. When do the tomorrow's end and that other, always better, future begin?
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Transformation, Landmark Education
It is amazing.
On my way to work this morning, I called and left a voicemail for a friend noting that I feel like a different person each day. I wake up and I'm not the same person I was the day before. Almost two weeks ago I took Landmark Education's Advanced Course. I'd gotten fantastic insights and results after taking their Forum. To say that I'd been looking forward to the Advanced Course would be an understatement.
They promised it would offer an opportunity to see your life differently, to break free of old patterns that weren't serving you and all the other usual benefits promulgated by self-help books, seminars and events. And they delivered.
New ways of being are showing up in so many areas. All of them wondrous, marvelous and miraculous. All of them catching me by surprise. It's like all my default settings got reset to something closer to powerful and further from resigned.
Not to give away their process or curriculum, but the course helps you identify a habitual go-to stance developed as a child in response to something unpleasant. It was a response that suited and served a little child trying to defend itself and survive in world not fully understood. Basically, you uncover your ego's main point-of-view.
I'd go into details about my particular go-to stance in the world and the experiences I suspect are at its root, but that would take three entries right there. Suffice it to say that somewhere along the way, sometime in early childhood, I learned to have the attitude "I don't have to" in response to anything unpleasant or potentially threatening. If I might fail, be rejected or found out as someone who doesn't truly belong, then my automatic ego response would kick in--more reaction than response. In the tone of a frustrated three-year-old: "I don't have to!!!" Picture the arms crossed forcefully, a foot stomp and pout as the words are screeched out.
What is fabulous, just amazing, is that having identified that unconscious fall-back ego attitude, I now have the ability to thank it for sharing and get on with whatever action I turly desire, freed from the constraints of what others will think or whether the action helps me fit in, belong and get along.
If you haven't done their course, it's hard to explain. I'll try. You know that voice in your head that drones on and on when there's something you don't really want to do? Imagine hearing it and knowing body, mind and soul that it is an automatic response and not you actually thinking. For example, I needed to attend to my budgeting and had been putting it off for quite a while. I hadn't been getting 10% into charities like I want because I'd been too busy indulging my whims. I needed to take an honest look at what lifestyle choices I can and cannot afford if I want to both save money and give the 10% that I believe blesses my life.
I woke up at 5:14am Monday morning. The old me would have stayed under the covers till 5:55am when the alarm went off. Being wide awake and fully rested doesn't trump "I don't have to" on most days. But this past Monday morning, I heard a little whisper say, "You could have a breakthrough right now." I got up, got my stuff organized and created the budget and financial goals I'd been putting off for months and months.
That can sound pretty basic, even simple, unimpressive and a bit shy of miraculous and amazing. Yet, for me, it was miraculous. My commitment came before my go-to ego-driven "I don't have to". Since the course, it's happening at work, around the house. I take more risks, too. I don't mind being told no or trying something and failing. It's so powerful!
Of course, it is also heady. I'm squeezing more into each day. I'm interacting with friends and family more frequently, less the loner persona that served my "I don't have to" act.
The result of this "success" is that I'm also a little off-balance. I'm me, but I'm a me I don't know very well.
Landmark is about transformation. I've been transformed.
I look forward each new day to getting to know a new me, a more powerful me than the day before.
On my way to work this morning, I called and left a voicemail for a friend noting that I feel like a different person each day. I wake up and I'm not the same person I was the day before. Almost two weeks ago I took Landmark Education's Advanced Course. I'd gotten fantastic insights and results after taking their Forum. To say that I'd been looking forward to the Advanced Course would be an understatement.
They promised it would offer an opportunity to see your life differently, to break free of old patterns that weren't serving you and all the other usual benefits promulgated by self-help books, seminars and events. And they delivered.
New ways of being are showing up in so many areas. All of them wondrous, marvelous and miraculous. All of them catching me by surprise. It's like all my default settings got reset to something closer to powerful and further from resigned.
Not to give away their process or curriculum, but the course helps you identify a habitual go-to stance developed as a child in response to something unpleasant. It was a response that suited and served a little child trying to defend itself and survive in world not fully understood. Basically, you uncover your ego's main point-of-view.
I'd go into details about my particular go-to stance in the world and the experiences I suspect are at its root, but that would take three entries right there. Suffice it to say that somewhere along the way, sometime in early childhood, I learned to have the attitude "I don't have to" in response to anything unpleasant or potentially threatening. If I might fail, be rejected or found out as someone who doesn't truly belong, then my automatic ego response would kick in--more reaction than response. In the tone of a frustrated three-year-old: "I don't have to!!!" Picture the arms crossed forcefully, a foot stomp and pout as the words are screeched out.
What is fabulous, just amazing, is that having identified that unconscious fall-back ego attitude, I now have the ability to thank it for sharing and get on with whatever action I turly desire, freed from the constraints of what others will think or whether the action helps me fit in, belong and get along.
If you haven't done their course, it's hard to explain. I'll try. You know that voice in your head that drones on and on when there's something you don't really want to do? Imagine hearing it and knowing body, mind and soul that it is an automatic response and not you actually thinking. For example, I needed to attend to my budgeting and had been putting it off for quite a while. I hadn't been getting 10% into charities like I want because I'd been too busy indulging my whims. I needed to take an honest look at what lifestyle choices I can and cannot afford if I want to both save money and give the 10% that I believe blesses my life.
I woke up at 5:14am Monday morning. The old me would have stayed under the covers till 5:55am when the alarm went off. Being wide awake and fully rested doesn't trump "I don't have to" on most days. But this past Monday morning, I heard a little whisper say, "You could have a breakthrough right now." I got up, got my stuff organized and created the budget and financial goals I'd been putting off for months and months.
That can sound pretty basic, even simple, unimpressive and a bit shy of miraculous and amazing. Yet, for me, it was miraculous. My commitment came before my go-to ego-driven "I don't have to". Since the course, it's happening at work, around the house. I take more risks, too. I don't mind being told no or trying something and failing. It's so powerful!
Of course, it is also heady. I'm squeezing more into each day. I'm interacting with friends and family more frequently, less the loner persona that served my "I don't have to" act.
The result of this "success" is that I'm also a little off-balance. I'm me, but I'm a me I don't know very well.
Landmark is about transformation. I've been transformed.
I look forward each new day to getting to know a new me, a more powerful me than the day before.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Bee-ing
I remember being afraid of bees when I was a kid. I know for a fact that one bumble bee got a great laugh as it chased me down the street. It knew what it was doing, knew I was scared out of my mind, and I'm certain it went back to the other bees with a story about a little pigtailed kid who thought it could sting her.
Thirty-something years later, me and the whole bee community are on better terms. In fact, now that I'm clearer on how important they are to our entire food chain, I love them. With all the talk of the disappearing honey bees, whenever I see one, I get excited.
This morning I was on a conference call while I walked my dog. For some reason doing two things at once made me more attentive than usual to little details I normally overlook when I walk Chocolate. At one point, I observed a dead spider on the ground and actually bent a little closer to check out what kind it was. Not that I know anything about the various types of spiders beyond their look, but intuitively I get some sense of them.
Later I happened to glance down and saw a bee. It was wiggling its little body and seemed to be doing a bit poorly. Just following my gut, I leaned down and extended a finger to its bottom half and sent it a little Reiki. It wriggled a little more. I got up and walked away.
A few seconds later, about twenty feet from where I'd barely touched it, the most beautiful thing happpened. He buzzed me. The bee came close enough to buzz right inside my ear and then flew off at a right angle. Maybe I too recently saw the Bee movie, but in that instant I intuitively understood it came close to say thanks. Before I processed it consciously, I sent off a telepathic "no problem" in reply. My heart was full.
Real or imagined, I love feeling and believing that the smallest gestures are grand in impact.
Thirty-something years later, me and the whole bee community are on better terms. In fact, now that I'm clearer on how important they are to our entire food chain, I love them. With all the talk of the disappearing honey bees, whenever I see one, I get excited.
This morning I was on a conference call while I walked my dog. For some reason doing two things at once made me more attentive than usual to little details I normally overlook when I walk Chocolate. At one point, I observed a dead spider on the ground and actually bent a little closer to check out what kind it was. Not that I know anything about the various types of spiders beyond their look, but intuitively I get some sense of them.
Later I happened to glance down and saw a bee. It was wiggling its little body and seemed to be doing a bit poorly. Just following my gut, I leaned down and extended a finger to its bottom half and sent it a little Reiki. It wriggled a little more. I got up and walked away.
A few seconds later, about twenty feet from where I'd barely touched it, the most beautiful thing happpened. He buzzed me. The bee came close enough to buzz right inside my ear and then flew off at a right angle. Maybe I too recently saw the Bee movie, but in that instant I intuitively understood it came close to say thanks. Before I processed it consciously, I sent off a telepathic "no problem" in reply. My heart was full.
Real or imagined, I love feeling and believing that the smallest gestures are grand in impact.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
A Brand New Sei...Sei He Ki
When I began my Reiki experiences two years ago, I did as I was told. I did my daily self-treatments every day for the first twenty-one days. Then, not so much. Then again before and after Reiki II and so on. Back in April I was reading Abundance through Reiki and again got in the habit of daily self-treatments. Why do we stop? I guess that's like asking why we aren't "perfect" in the conventionally rigid sense of the word.
(For those readers who haven't read my Reiki stuff, see the favorites and click on the That Cat stories and others in that time period. In short, Reiki is a healing energy most commonly associated with its use in hospitals and spas as an alternative healing therapy. My blog is for a bunch of different audiences, so if you're not into all that alternative stuff, click around to find my usual rants about writing.)
It's kinda like being in the habit of drinking water daily and eating your vegetables and you feel great. But then, there's sweets, fried foods, overeating, a little less water. And after a while, we ask "Why aren't I feeling as optimal as before?"
Well, for me there was another factor, as well. After a bout with some negative energy months back, I saw my own energy healer and she reminded me the importance of cleaning, clearing and sealing after each Reiki session. I get sloppy. I do Reiki here and there on this person and that or for places and situations. It's a very informal practice and so I slack off on the formalaties--like cleaning, clearing and sealing when I'm done.
Basically, my healer suggested I'd left the door open. Evidently, negative energy doesn't wait for an invitation. I wasn't sticking to the routine and it was costing me. Being a wannabe perfectionist, I can easily get the attitude that, "Well, if I'm gonna do it not-so-well, better I don't do it at all." If I was allowing the negative energy I was supposedly clearing to latch on and hang around, then better I just leave it sit around like stale air. Leave it and just move along out of its reach. A bit inconsistent with whole notion of using our healing techniques to be a blessing to ourselves and others.
Sure enough, after a while, I missed that healthy feeling. I've already explored Pranic Healing and TeraMai Seichem Reiki. They have their pluses, that's for sure. But I like the simplicity and effectiveness of basic Reiki. There are at least another 100 flavors of Reiki that purport to increase one's healing powers. Yet, every fiber in my being said that I already had everything I needed with the basic Reiki and their four symbols.
I successfully fought off the urge to dump hundreds or thousands of dollars for a new flavor, when all I really wanted was plain old feels-good, tastes-good and does a perfect job vanilla ice cream.
I returned to doing the self-treatments at night. But then I'd get nice and sleepy and well, back to where we started, I wouldn't particularly feel like doing the elaborate rituals for cleaning-clearing and sealing.
All that to say, I was praying for a simpler way.
Last week I took a moment to relax after walking my dog at one of the huge regional parks. It was a beautiful, clear day, about 80 degrees. It felt like being on a hike in the woods, except for the houses across the street. It was the perfect scene for a little Reiki.
And that's when the symbol, shown above and below, popped into my consciousness. There were some old ideas hanging around in my aura. Just bad habits of thought and expectation. Several small versions of that symbol went to the places in my aura where old energy was caked and lodged. The zig-zag part zapped it out of place and the two semi circles lifted it out, up and into the light.
When I inquired intuitively, I understood the sybmol to be my answer to a quick easy cleanse and clear after doing Reiki. Just use a larger version of same about my entire aura and voila, negative debris taken to the light for transformation. Like the twice sliding hand slap that says "well that's that and it's done".
Being a Leo with a healthy ego, I immediately imagined that I'd received some new symbol from the ethers. Yes, I even contemplated whether I should get a trademark like all the other "inventors" of healing symbols do. Then I decided to actually draw it out, not just see it in my mind. Turned out it was awfully similar to writing Sei He Ki.
Diane Stein's Essential Reiki gives the usual explanation of the uses of Sei He Ki. Additionally, "It can be used for protection and purification, to clear negative energy, to release spirit attachments... I was not taught these uses, and believe they are no longer generally known."
That helped explain it for me.
I'd be curious to know what anyone who uses the Reiki symbols thinks. Have you seen this version anywhere? I'm sure I'm not the first person to become privy to it.
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